{Day 25}

I have a little bit of a problem…its called “Schedule post” and Im addicted to it.

Im sorry, I must admit blame all of my problems on SOMETHING and why not be the cause of all evil?

You see, about two and ½ weeks ago (but really, whos counting – I AM – that’s who!) I started this thing called “September-Blog-A-Thon” now lets hear it up for everyone whos participating, and has made it this far – yea!!

Anyways, back on track. When I first started, I thought that when I got in a writing mood, I would write. Like a bunch. And then when I wasn’t feeling creative, I could rely on one of these already written fabulous pieces.

Infact, its gotten to the point where instead of simply publishing, I SCHEDULE it to be published, a few minutes later.

But. I got addicted. And instead, I relied upon this stupid button. Instead of getting up in the morning and punching out a wonderful post over a cup of coffee, and reminiscing about the good old days (what are those anyways?) I would log on, and lo-and-behold – there was a post. Already posted for the day! And I would beam.

Instant gratification.

I am lame.

I relied upon this button for everything, far more than I should. And I will admit, dear bloggy world, I have become victim. To da button.

Need a post? No problem! Need an idea? No problem! Need a million dollars? Me too!

What I mean to say is that instead of just relying on the button for scheduling my posts, I have relied upon it to do EVERYTHING. To moderate comments, to leave comments, to link up at appropriate times, to spell check, double check, and even…dare I say, write the posts themselves (well look – its doing it now so I must be onto something!)

I am here to say that I am sorry.

If there was a mistake? It wasn’t my fault! Instead, I will give all due blame to “Da button.” You have a problem? The button!

Are you sensing a pattern? Good. No go forth and make a fool of yourself, because misery loves company. Then tell me – how did the button, change YOUR life??

{BTW – At the current time you are reading this – We are going through Canada on our way to Washington/Oregon}

So much that needs to get done, so many things to do.   But I cant get myself motivated to do them.  Instead all I can do is sit here…and look…and think….and know.

Know.

Know that when we get back, things wont ever be the same for reasons I havent mentioned.

Know that change is coming, and when I get back, my life isn’t going to be the same life I left.

Know that I dread change.  But change is coming.  And change is good.

But I cant get myself motivated to be excited about doing something…that I know…in less than 24 hours…will be over.

I don’t want to go on this trip.  And I just now know why.

I don’t want to go, because I don’t want to come back.

I don’t want to come back to the change that will happen.

It scares me.

This new life that is coming.  These changes that are happening.  This.

In my mind – not going – will somehow stop the change from coming.

Regardless.

This isnt how it always it.  This is how it was last night.  And I had to atleast acknowledge my fears before I could move on.  To be completely honest, I am happy about the changes that are coming.  I was just a little hesitant last night (and sometimes) because change, of any kind, scares me, and I know these next steps in life are going to be big.

{Day 21}

Happiness is this one:

Tomcat

(well, this one too)

Odo:

I thought for sure I already did a “Happiness project” post on them, but I couldnt find one, and couldnt let it slip by.  I havent spent as much time as Id like with them this week, but if I need any bit of happiness, I just have to scoop one of them up and its impossible NOT to smile (unless your allergic, that is!)

{Day 19}

{Linked up with Sarcastic mom}

This week, thanks to the clear skies, and nicer weather, weve seen a lot of the moon.  I really wanted to get the reflection of it on the water – but never remembered to bring my camera.  Friday I did, but was really annoyed with how they turned out.  The street lamp made the colors all off, and the shape of the moon wasnt turning out.

Then we got home and the moon was still taunting me, but this was all I got…

I ran inside and did a quick google search on settings and came up with this.  I really was wanting to get this moon with the above trees, but it wasnt and didnt happen.

Earlier this week I was making dinner when I realized the oven wasnt working right.  To figure out if it was the entire oven or just the settings, I turned it on broil.

Broil + glass pan =

I had a lot of fun taking pictures of these guys this past week:

And of course, I couldnt NOT post pictures of atleast one of the cats!

I loved his pose in this one, he was trying to get on my lap while I snapped pictures.

Successful!