Tangled Thoughts

All for Him

Christina

November 28, 2010

If you didn’t notice, I took a short break. I needed it I think. I needed time to focus and refocus on something that has become distant in my life, and needed to be brought back to the front lines, where it…HE belongs. Ive been guilty of idolatry. In many things. Ive been “Too busy” to realize this, and so I did. I stopped what I was doing to put HIM back in my life, where HE rightfully belongs – FIRST.

First off, I took the break to focus on some scripture memory. Thus the daily verse.

Secondly I had so many things in my mind it was making it cloudy to actually see and focus. I was trying to do too many things at the same time, and had to put some things on hold while I figured things out. Ive been trying to memorize scripture, memorize things for my driving test, and memorize things camera related. All while trying to do day to day things with the business, being caught up in emotions with things going on, and well…quite frankly, I wasn’t giving my whole to any one thing.

So I had to stop. And step back. And just breath. And regroup. Refocus.

Do you know how hard that was? Honestly? I didn’t know it would be so difficult. My stats took a hit – and a few times I thought about going back in. So many photo contests I wanted to participate in, I had the perfect pictures. But I couldn’t. I needed this. This blog isn’t suppose to be about me, and that’s what it has turned into. Me. Me. Me. All me. All mine. Arg.

No wonder I have been feeling down. Duh.

It seems so obvious, and yet, I couldn’t see it. Or didn’t want to see it. I cant please myself. Or others. I cant please everyone. I just cant do that. I cant. And if I can, its only for a moment. Temporary.

A few Sundays ago, I was really convicted, with another sermon. “Whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God” See it up there? My new tag line? Yes. That is to remind me. That whatever I do, everything, all things, THIS BLOG, is NOT for me and my glory…but for God. That’s what it was suppose to be, and I have been SO guilty of turning the tables.

And reaping the consequences. I don’t want it for me. I don’t want to live for me. It doesn’t work. Ive tried it…so many many times, and yet I fail to remember. I fail to remember that the reason I am ABLE to do ANYTHING is because of HIM.

For HIS glory. For HIM.

Not me.

Never.

And the moment I start to raise myself up…is the moment I need to be reminded. Again and again and again.

Its not about me. Its not for me.

ALL is for HIS glory.

Engagement shoot

Christina

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November 27, 2010

Yesterday we headed off for town to try and get some pictures of Amanda and David. Without getting the classical “Engagement” shots – you know the type. My dad used to be a photographer (in highschool) but I have never really ventured too far to ask him for help/advice. But yesterday was very nice. He was there giving pointers, pointing out new angles and ideas. To be honest, it was very fun!

It was the first time I actually shot in a mode other than automatic, so I was pretty happy. Heres a few favorites because I cant resist!

Trying out different positions…

But then they complained about being cold. And Davids pizza was in the car – getting equally cold, so we moved on…

To a place some might not have agreed upon.

…other places were too cold…

We ended up at the beach.

Where they found this. And forgot all about pictures.

Well, not entirely. They posed. With this.

And then tried to eat it…

But none of those were going to make good pictures for announcements!

They recovered fairly well, and we tried out a new pose that I thought would be fun.

I told them to put their backs to each other, cross their arms and…”Look Posh.” I got this.

Either we need to work on “Posh” looks or “Posh” wasnt the word I was looking for.

It only resulted in this…

That took a little longer to recover from!

But we moved on…

I think these are my favorites:

For this one I told them to do the same pose, only sitting down – and had David look “Past the camera” with a more serious look on, while Amanda looked fondly at him. I thought its was cute.